Nobody Knew - A Transformational Story Heidi Mendez
Nobody knew. They knew I was 7 months pregnant. They knew my husband was away for a year on a remote tour. They knew I was living alone with two young kids in my grandparents' old home. They knew, but nobody knew my pain.
Anybody could guess how hard the timing of time away could be, but nobody truly knew. I had tried everything to calm nerves and settle anxiety: throwing myself into a business, pretending the pain was not there, getting into shape, yoga…nothing helped. In fact, all these attempts tangled into a mess. My heart and mind began to believe old lies of satan and sin I had struggled with in the past suddenly became unmanageable again. I had fallen into deep depression and suicidal thoughts plagued my nights; the guilt weighed heavily as I berated myself constantly, “How could I even think of that while carrying our baby?”
Shocked and stunned at my state, I threw myself into therapy, confessed my hardships to my husband, and God began to heal my heart slowly. Despite completing these steps, I struggled daily to cope and didn't know how I would make it through that year.
I didn't know it yet, but God knew. God would use Aeronova to help me know and experience true healing. I had heard about Aeronova's Gather conference, but with strict debt-canceling goals, the money just was not available for the trip. Miraculously, God made a way financially for me to attend, and He met me there in the mountains of Colorado.
I cried and sobbed through many of the sessions. I experienced God's love deeply. I confessed my hardships and sins to the beautiful prayer team. God used many speakers, volunteers, and friends to lift my feet upon a rock, up and out of miry clay. God used the people of Aeronova along with the space and teachings curated to restore my soul. Those new friends have become my family as I have grown and flourished spiritually under their pastoral care.